Dear God,I am caught between two worlds.Liberal Christianity in one hand, and conservative, Nebraskan Christianity,In the other. I find it liberating to study progressive biblical studies, where weAre critical of the Bible's origins,But I also miss its applications to our lives.Where we are guided by the Word,Where God teaches us so much. I feel taught … Continue reading Living in two worlds…
Today, I left my DoC church.I've left the Christian Church (Disciples of Christ). I met up with the pastor of First Presbyterian, and Everything sounded right. Reformed theology sounded right. Even if the PCUSA shys away from predetermininism. God, I see this is where you are putting me.I enjoyed First Christian for a while,But as … Continue reading A Poem on Today
Hi everyone,I hope your week is going well! Here are just a few of my updates, troubles, and struggles: As I'm growing more Reformed, I'm leaning toward the Presbyterian Church (USA). They're a liberal Reformed church, but I'm a liberal Nebraskan, so I'm down for it. The trouble is what to do with my lovable, … Continue reading Life Update & Faith Links: God, I am learning
God,You call people into relationship with you. On May 22nd, 2016, I was called into relationship with you in the waters of baptism, where Water was poured on my head three times, In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. I've been on a whirlwind of a faith journey,Where I've been … Continue reading Growing as a Christian: A Poem
Hi everyone,These past couple of weeks have been a serious struggle. I know I'm fighting God's will for my life, and my wrestle with Him is just causing me pain! My Church, First Christian Church, is voting this Sunday on two things:1. Should we leave our denomination?2. Should we close our doors for good? I … Continue reading Life Update: Fighting God’s Will
It's truly a mixture of it all,Where faith is for me. I am Reformed,I am Arminian,I believe in the Perseverance of Saints,Yet I believe we can fall from grace as Christians,And temporarily lose our salvation. This is why I am Disciples of Christ. We confess no creeds,Yet confess Christ as Lord and Savior. We follow … Continue reading A Mixture of It All: Poem
Dear God,For a week now, I've been studying Eternal Security. As someone who is moving from Arminian to Reformed theology, this is one thing that has been bugging me, and one thing I can't quiet give up - Apostasy. You see, I believe with my whole heart that we can commit apostasy. It says in … Continue reading A Prayer: God, am I wrong? Am I right? What does the Bible really say about Eternal Security?
Dear God,If Calvinism is at least partly true,Then we live in a paradox-like world of free will and predetermination. If Calvinism if at least partly true,Then we have free will, that you judge us on how we use it.But you laid out the world's events before the world began.Truly, I am moving toward Reformed theology.I … Continue reading Poem: If Calvinism if at least partly true…
Dear God,You passed Judgement on your people,Time and Time again. But again and again,You passed Salvation. From once being called "Not God's People,"To "His Children," Us Christians passed through the waters of SalvationTo enter as Citizens of Heaven.We clothe ourselves in Christ,Carrying God with us. All we have to do is knock, ask, seek.God answers. … Continue reading Proper 12: A Poetic Prayer of Hope amidst God’s Judgment
Dear GodGod, I'm in awe of you,And your sovereignty and all your goodness.You work all things for good, for those you called according to your purpose. I've been struggling with Arminian vs. Reformed theology,And I've realized, after talking with my Pastor,And reading my Bible,That's its a lot more complicated than we once thought. God has … Continue reading It’s All in All – God’s Decree/Plan, My Life: A Poetic Prayer
God,I know one thing, and that the Bible is full of theodicy. It means: Finding answers of a good God in the midst of evil.Calvinists, Isaiah, Paul, Solomon, nearly everyone,Says you are the author of both good and evil.Even Isaiah 45:7 states"I form the light and create darkness, I bring prosperity and create disaster; I, … Continue reading A Poem: Moving Past Biblical Theology: Theodicy
Update: As I was taught by professors, the Jewish and early-Christians thought that God ordained both good and bad is a comforting explanation in hindsight. I just remembered that. David, Isaiah, Paul, Luke - all believed God ordained things as a comforting remark. We as Christians today, still have a habit of believing that! Signed, … Continue reading Troubling Thought: Does God Ordain Pain, or Just Allow It?