Life Update: A Decision Has Been Made

Hi Everyone,
I’m almost done with spring semester, and this school year in general, and have been going through a whirlwind year of faith discovery.

First, I’ve discovered that I cannot repent enough to be saved, so I’ve figured out by heart that I am saved by grace and cannot lose my salvation by works. I can, however, lose salvation if I completely reject God, though. I’d have to spit in the face of God to do that. So, I’m Arminian by faith.

Second, I’ve been going back and forth on the Trinity for the past month to two months. I’m not exactly sure when I started getting interested in the Trinity, but it’s been growing on me ever since. Last week, after my last flip-flop (and confusing posts on the blog and Instagram), I decided to stick with the Trinity. I’ve now told others that I’m interested in studying it, and they are holding me accountable.

This journey with Christ is interesting, but I know the first two things to do are: Write letters to Christ about his mortal journey, and meditate on the presence and love of God in Christ. God is still God – he just came in the form of Jesus. So, the Son is also God. Trippy, but cool. I still pray to Heavenly Father, but I’ve been acknowledging Jesus as God the Son and mediator to the Father.

Now is the time to build my testimony of the God in Christ.

I’m mourning the loss of a Unitarian faith, but with each passing day, it seems to be getting better. I don’t like conservative Christianity that lacks social justice and fighting for the oppressed, though. If I’m ever going to be a trinitarian Christian, I’m going to be a progressive, open-minded, justice-fighting Christian. We are meant to love our neighbors as Christ loved us, right?

This is a strange and weird territory, but I know I can do this. I do sincerely apologize for all the flip-floppy posts on here. I’ve decided to keep them up to show my sincere faith journey.

Alleluia – Christ is Risen! Now as God became a servant on the cross for us, let us serve our fellow neighbors for God.


God Is Good: A Poem

A Testimony,
Of God and How GOOD He is.

God is good,
Not because he loves me because I am good,
But because He IS GOOD.

Nothing, as we learned in church today,
Is by coincidence.
All is planned about by the Lord.

The good is a perfect gift from above.
The bad are consequences from our actions and others’ actions.
The ugly are lessons from the LORD.

The LORD is good, the Lord is good.
The Lord is so good that he came to the cross to save me,
A sinner who could not become perfect.
I was a terrible sinner,
Full of hatred in the past for my God,
Full of hateful, horrible, hurtful language,
Immoral thoughts,
serious rage,
And I could never repent enough for all of these sins.

Not to earn grace,
But as a thank you,
I try my best every day.
First at church, I watch my foul language,
And hope to teach my children to stay clear of immoral thoughts and live righteously.

Live righteously as a thank you to the Lord,
For all He has done.

Alleluia, he has Risen. He has RISEN INDEED.


Tiny Testimony: What Does Easter Have to do with Progressive Christians?

A Tiny note:

We are forgiven, from a past, present, and future sins.  This does not give us an excuse to do wrong, but to use our freedom wisely.  To do good for all.

What does being forgiven mean for progressive Christians?  It means all the hate we’ve spewed, whether on purpose or by accident, is not held against us by God in Jesus.  It means the racism, bigotry, and Islamophobia that is rampant in our country, while it will be discussed between sinful folks and Jesus at judgement, does not curse us from God’s reign.  It also means, as we celebrate Easter this Sunday, that racism and all other horrible things against others and our Earth are not the last act.  They do not have the final word.  While there is trouble, Jesus overcame the world and all its troubles, and will endow and has already endowed us with God’s Kingdom on Earth, in Heaven, and in the Resurrection.  We can never escape God’s reign if we are believers.  

If we are believers, we can have a surety of hope that death is not the end.  Death due to hatred is not the end.  Our Earth, while falling apart, will be renewed as the city of the New Jerusalem will come down.  Love has the final word.  

Love has the final word.

Happy Easter everyone! As I’ve still discovering the Trinity, I’m learning more about having a relationship with Jesus and am building my own testimony of Him.

I’m so sorry I’ve been so flip-floppy on the Trinity vs. Unitarianism, but I think I’ve made up my mind.

Alleluia.  Christ is Risen Indeed!


Dear Jesus: Good Friday

Dear Jesus,

Today, you are being whipped, mocked, and put on trial for the nth time.  

Today, you will be crucified.  Today, you will endure the most pain anyone, Man or God or both, have ever endured.  

Today, you save all of us with your blood and death.

Today, you say “It is finished,” “My God, My God, why hast thou forsaken me?”

Today, you felt the weight of history’s sin on you.  God possibly turned his back to you, as you were endowed with all sin, so that we would never be forsaken by God by our sins.

Thank you Jesus, God incarnate.  Thank you, my Savior and Shepherd and King.  Thank you God, for dying on the cross so that I could be free from my sins and enter the Kingdom of Heaven.  Thank you God, for watching our Son die, for enduring the cross, and for entering us through your Holy Spirit.  

Thank you, O GOD, for everything, even if I struggle to imagine this kind of love.  

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

A Prayer to Jesus: Holy Thursday

Dear Jesus,

I heard that you washed your friends feet.  As God in the flesh, you descended from on high to Earth, where you humbled yourself even deeper, to the status of servant to your friends.  You considered all of us your friends, because you had revealed the secrets to the Kingdom of God to us.  You shared an intimacy with us that only you had shared with God (although I’m still trying to figure out what that means actually).  

It is as if we are there when you first washed our feet.  We are there.  We were there, with you.

That is very comforting.  You humbled yourself to us as friends.  You were that humble, O God.  You humbled yourself so deeply in humanity that you had friends, so that on the cross you were human completely.  So completely you were human that you thought God the Father had forsaken you.  You felt that alone.

I thank you, in your humble name.  Amen.