Life Update: A Decision Has Been Made

Hi Everyone,
I’m almost done with spring semester, and this school year in general, and have been going through a whirlwind year of faith discovery.

First, I’ve discovered that I cannot repent enough to be saved, so I’ve figured out by heart that I am saved by grace and cannot lose my salvation by works. I can, however, lose salvation if I completely reject God, though. I’d have to spit in the face of God to do that. So, I’m Arminian by faith.

Second, I’ve been going back and forth on the Trinity for the past month to two months. I’m not exactly sure when I started getting interested in the Trinity, but it’s been growing on me ever since. Last week, after my last flip-flop (and confusing posts on the blog and Instagram), I decided to stick with the Trinity. I’ve now told others that I’m interested in studying it, and they are holding me accountable.

This journey with Christ is interesting, but I know the first two things to do are: Write letters to Christ about his mortal journey, and meditate on the presence and love of God in Christ. God is still God – he just came in the form of Jesus. So, the Son is also God. Trippy, but cool. I still pray to Heavenly Father, but I’ve been acknowledging Jesus as God the Son and mediator to the Father.

Now is the time to build my testimony of the God in Christ.

I’m mourning the loss of a Unitarian faith, but with each passing day, it seems to be getting better. I don’t like conservative Christianity that lacks social justice and fighting for the oppressed, though. If I’m ever going to be a trinitarian Christian, I’m going to be a progressive, open-minded, justice-fighting Christian. We are meant to love our neighbors as Christ loved us, right?

This is a strange and weird territory, but I know I can do this. I do sincerely apologize for all the flip-floppy posts on here. I’ve decided to keep them up to show my sincere faith journey.

Alleluia – Christ is Risen! Now as God became a servant on the cross for us, let us serve our fellow neighbors for God.

Amen.

Life Update: Revelation & What To Do With It

Hi everyone,
I hope your week is going well so far. Here a few life updates:

  1. Still Unitarian. Tried out the Trinity a while back, but I cannot deny some aspects of the Gospels where Jesus had real relationship with his Father, and testified that there is only one God, Yahweh. Also, I know for a fact from previous New Testament classes that Paul and the early disciples did not believe in the Trinity, as per their writings in the New Testament. When I thought I believed in the Trinity, I thought I received revelation from God explaining how the Trinity worked (Father: Mind; Son: Body; Spirit: Power/Spirit). But while I can finally understand the Trinity, I just don’t believe in it. I’ve had friends try to convert me back to the Trinity and ask me to repent and believe like doubting Thomas, but I know my faith. I know what I believe.
  2. Still in the swing of Seminary right now. I’ve thought multiple times about transferring somewhere else, but every Seminary that I like (and that seems accredited the highest standard) requires the use of Zoom or video chat in a live classroom. I’ve hated being in a classroom since at least my senior year of high school. I don’t mind doing purely online class, where I read the lectures on a PDF, watch pre-recorded lectures, and submit and connect with my peers via Moodle. That has always seemed perfect for me. Anyway, most accredited school (if not all) require at least some participation in a real-life class setting (even if by Zoom). So, I’ll just be staying at United until graduation. Most of the time I feel like I don’t fit (as Nebraskan trying to fit into Minnesota’s culture), but I absolutely love my classmates that I’m friends with on Facebook and my professors that I’ve gotten to know.
  3. Working at Walmart. Good news, I got a raise! A .22 cent raise, but whatever works. Finally starting to save up some money for the future!
  4. Thinking of the future. Kristin has hinted that she’ll be moving out when Brendan graduates so they can live together, and while I’m stressed that I’ve got all the bills to pay once she moves out, I’m looking forward to having this place to just me and Jacob. I can’t wait to decorate it as I please and turn Kristin’s bedroom into me and Jacob’s office. I’m hoping, with money saved up, to get more of my own furniture and start living like a real adult.

Well, that’s all folks!

Happy Ash Wednesday! And have a thoughtful Lent.

Alleluia and Amen.

Thanks,
Leigh Todd

Life Update: Between Christmas & Epiphany

Our Christmas tree this year!

Hi everyone!

Sorry I’ve been away for so long – I’ve mostly been updating Instagram and Twitter, and enjoying work and end-of-year stuff!

Fall semester has just ended, and I hope my grades were B- or above! I really struggled with when to do homework (like having a homework schedule that works with my work schedule), and getting better at writing. I mostly skimmed most of my readings, but I’ve always been really good at skimming (plus tips from professors!), so that works.

Nebraska is full-swing into Winter, and I am NOT enjoying it. It’s not as bad as Minnesota winters, but the arctic wind is TERRIBLE! It rained all day at work yesterday as I was pushing carts, and I was soaked to the core. We had a mini-blizzard today, with lots of snow. The snowfall wasn’t too bad, but the wind, my Lord, is terrible. Jacob and I just walked a few feet from our apartment to North Casey’s, and I could hardly breathe in any air – it was so cold and windy!

Although this was a rough beginning of a semester and the weather is a pain, I’m just glad how much I’ve progressed this year. First, I graduated from college, a feat I had wished for so long. Second, I got an apartment lease with MY name on it – that’s a big deal for me. With an old eviction on my record, it’s been nice moving forward and being an ADULT. With me taking two classes this Spring, and then three every semester until graduation, I’m hoping to pay my rent with school loans until I graduate and become a pastor/chaplain. Although I will have a lot of loans to pay off, I’m hoping that and care payments will be the only bills I owe. I am certainly doing this adult thing!

With church, I’m still a part of Disciples of Christ, and I really enjoy the traditions, although I’m looking for more High Church (more liturgy) than what I get at First Christian in Aurora. So, my sister will revisit FCC in Lincoln sometime soon! They actually use the lectionary, pass the peace/great your neighbor, and all that. Aurora is a little two low church for me. I’m also hoping there will be more diversity of biblical interpretations at FCC-Lincoln than at Aurora. I can’t wait to attend their Sunday School!

Other than that, I’m really hoping to get my own car this spring and get my license. This is all very exciting. I’m hoping to get a Volkswagen Beetle with my income taxes!

That’s it! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Love, Leigh Todd

Life Update: Starting Seminary

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York High School Marching Band at Yorkfest!

Hi everyone!  I know I’ve been posting a lot of my sermons and testimonies instead of life updates, so here is an update!

I started Seminary last Tuesday.  I was really nervous about video-conferencing my classes and making sure I got the readings done this past week, but I did it!  I’ve officially completed week 1 of graduate school, and am now embarking on my second week this Tuesday.  I LOVE my Religious and Theological Interpretation class, and am already enjoying my Intro to Theology.  I’m somewhat enjoying my Intro to the Old Testament class, although I feel like the professor is pushing her interpretation of the Bible on us as the most correct way.  This professor is very disorganized (her Moodle page is a disaster).  But, I will not judge this class by one week.  Once I get the hang of reading the Moodle page/syllabus, and I get used to her style of teaching, I know the class will become easier.  There’s always one class that is daunting in the beginning!

Also, this weekend was Yorkfest. Here, businesses paraded through downtown and marching bands from various high schools competed against each other.  My youngest brother, Dane, marched this Saturday.  My family cheered him on and the rest of York’s marching band.  It was all very exciting, even if it took a while!

Then this past Sunday, instead of going to a church that I feel doesn’t accept me, I went to a very liberal United Methodist church here in York.  Here, they don’t follow creeds and welcome all biblical interpretations and sexual orientations and genders!  When I went to church at First UMC this past Sunday, I felt so loved and cherished.  Even though the music was trinitarian, when I mentioned that I was a Unitarian, they said “Welcome!!”  I was elated to just feel welcomed and not judged for how I view the Bible.  All means All at this church.  I’m still hoping to attend First Christian Church in Lincoln sometime starting this semester or next semester, as I am still a Disciple of Christ, but I’m going to enjoy being at this church until then.

[Also, I loved and missed the call and response that this church does, such as “Lord, hear our prayer,” because I haven’t experienced that in a LONG TIME!  I also loved really worshiping Jesus this Sunday, as worshiping Jesus gives glory to the Father! I really missed modern Christian music, as York’s FCC uses early 20th century music that doesn’t seem to touch my heart.]

As for other parts of my life, I was denied Medicaid and immediate enrollment for Nebraska’s healthcare marketplace, so on Thursday I’m going to ask for 32 hours a week at orientation (I’m going to work at Walmart!) so that I can apply for health insurance from them.  I pray and hope that this can happen, and that I can finally get Jacob and I health insurance, even if the premium comes out of my paycheck every other week.  I would love your prayers on this matter, as well as us getting an apartment soon when my sister’s lease ends in the beginning of October. Please, send all prayers and good vibes for these matters.

Thanks for reading my life update!

Alleluia.

Thanks,
Leigh Todd